just a kiss

i had a lovely day today. despite having the one person i don't want to around sitting not to far from me and homecoming i did have fun. i almost died going over to say hi to Brittney but then i realized you will haunt me forever but i really don't care because you don't matter anymore and i don't mean that in a mean way i really don't. its just the truth. but back to my day after homecoming i went to a friends house and we just hung out. two of my friends changed clothes and it was veryyyyyyyyy funnyyyy. we chilled outside and i listened to everyone play music which i love i find it so relaxing. we then watched anchorman which has to be the funniest movie ever made! i was cracking up the whole time! i had a wonderful time just laying next to tom i felt so comfortable and safe. i love that feeling. and the fact that he didn't try anything sexual is a great change and it actually makes me feel better i don't feel like a sex toy anymore. it was just a kiss a perfect wonderful kiss<3>

lierr!

you lied right to my face you didn't just tell a small lie once. i lied to my face many times! you said you wanted to be my friend, you said it many times but you lied. you didn't care... you don't care. i always knew that it was a possibility but to hear it form someone that it was a lie that you didn't care hurt. hurt more then anything. and now i cant bear to even look at you just to see u make that fake ass smile will just piss me off. and for the future don't you dare ever lie to a girl like that it DOES NOT MAKE IT EASIER IT MAKES IT HARDER! but you know what i don't care anymore finding out you lied let me hit rock bottom and rock bottom means you can only get better from there and i have. i can finally officially let you go. i have no room in my life for the drama you caused so I'm letting it go I'm putting it down and walking away. i refuse to look back! good byee!!

i cry for you cuz idk wat else to do <3

i don't write here often but today i feel like i have to... you say you do stupid things and you know they can hurt you yet you still do it. you said if someone talked you out of it you wouldn't do it... but u did. i told you not to. i said you would get hurt yet you did it anyway and you did get hurt didn't you. even if it wasn't as bad as it could of been you still did it and then laughed about it. you tell me you know you have a problem yet when i try to help you don't let me. i died inside when you said "face it I'll do something stupid and hurt myself really bad or even kill myself" i cried i couldn't help it. how could you not care enough for your own health to think before you do something? and i cant help you there's nothing i can do but tell you that you shouldn't do things. but you wont listen will you... no one does. my words fall on deaf ears i think i should stop talking cause its not like anyone is listening to me anyway. i do everything possible to help everyone but they don't care cause they never listen I've tried there is nothing i can do anymore. i have failed and I'm sick of failing. so do as you please but just remember this.. i love you and i care more then you will ever know <3