Let me be as i sit here and cry till my hearts stops

Hidden, deep where no one can find it, secret love...hate...lust....loss, secret. forgotten by all but one, the one that's hides it. guards it with her life, hidden from all. she paints on a smile while her heart dies. memories pain her and faces remind her while all along her heart withers away. she cries alone where no one can see her. she tries to forget, she begs and begs for freedom but it never, NEVER goes away. her fear takes over her life. her thoughts drift to alcohol. oh how she wish to be someone else to just feel different even if only for a night. she needs the pain to stop her thoughts confuse her more than anything. she tells herself what to feel, what to think, how to act...act that's all she can do. her life is one big acting game... that will kill her one day...