do you know what really bothers me? when people see me for what i am on the outside. I'm a lot different on the inside then i am on the outside. and the more people judge from the outside the more i start to act like what they see. people see me and the first thing they see is my boobs not that they can help that i know that they are big and kinda take up my body. i just kills me when i try to have a conversation with a guy and hes looking down. i know I'm short but there's a difference between looking down at me and looking down at my boobs. it really just kills me inside and i act like i don't care at all like i want people to look... acting.. i seem to do a lot of that. but how can you be yourself when everyone sees something else and once people start to get to know me the really me the me that likes to sit and talk they will leave. i have gotten really close to people and then they leave me. which is why i don't open up as much as i used to because everyone says i care i want to help but in the end they just make everything harder. do you know i cant look guys in the eye when they talk to me? do you know why? because I'm afraid that they aren't looking at my face. everyday i hear a boob joke or some guy wants to watch me run. DO YOU KNOW DEGRADING THAT IS! DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL! no, no one cares how it makes me feel because my feeling don't matter. I'm a walking model with no soul! whatever!
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