I'm sorry

i have to say none of my friends talk to me... then again i don't blame them. I'm not a good friend scratch that I'm a horrible friend. and I'm sorry to everyone. i know we all have our differences but that's what makes us...us. i have been the worst friend ever this past few days and again I'm sorry i just had one of those "lets stay away from people" week. i don't know why but i just felt i couldn't handle it if something went wrong so instead i made EVERYTHING worse. again I'm sorry and i know i tend to say it a lot but its always for something different i learn from my mistakes so unless I'm really fucking dumb this wont happen anytime soon. and i know it seem that i hang out with my other friends a lot but that only because once i go away i wont see them till the end of the summer. so no I'm not leaving you guys even though i made it seem that way. and i know you guys are pissed at me and even if your not somewhere deep down you are. i really have been a bad friend to you guys and i don't want to not be friends with you. we have been through a lot and i don't want to lose a great friendship like that because I'm being a fucking bitch. so i am truly very sorry.

today was OK i guess... well no it was good it was relaxing i spent the day tanning. i decided today that i want to get stronger and i want to workout a little. i really want to work on my flexibility because i used to be really flexible but now I'm not because I'm not in dance anymore. i started stretching today and i can almost do a split again and that makes me very happy. i also want to work on my abs a little because my mom said she'd let me get a belly button ring if she could talk my dad into it (failing! haha) so if she can get my dad to agree i would love to get one. and i also want to look good for my cruise cause i heard you gain a lot of weight hahah so ill look good while on it then fat when i get off and that's fine with me :) i got a really strange sunburn and it makes me laugh. i decided to also work on my back bends and i was doing them so i would fall on the couch... well i missed and hurt my wrist pretty bad but its OK cause i then did it standing on my bed and i can do them now :) we shall see if i can still do it tomorrow. well we shall see if i can walk tomorrow haha all the stretching i did today will hurt like hell tomorrow!