besides me staying up till 3 waking up at 9 packing till when ever someone picks me up to leave i have had one hell of a week. I'm trying to figure out how in two days i will hangout with all my friends because once i go away i wont see half of them for the rest of the summer cause without the girls they wont invite me places. so there goes those summer plans... well they changed a long time ago, but whatever. i didn't get to talk to my new interest today because he came online when i went to go see harry potter with steph (WHICH WAS FUCKING AWESOME!) i like talking to him hes funny hes nice and so far didn't say much bout some of the things Ive done but then again he doesn't even know the half of it. that really worries me that my past will effect any future i try for. but i have to say Ive been a really happy person lately and I'm loving it. there are things that bring back memories and sometimes they hurt other times there just blurs almost like i forgot the feeling and hell it works for me. I'm a whole new person but I'm still split there are just too many parts of me, the bad ass, the whore, the bitch, the nice girl, the quite one, the flirt, the leader, the follower, the tom boy, the girly girl, the list can go on forever any opposites you can think of that's what i am. and its sad that i cant be just one person but i don't know who that one person is but you know what that's OK i have time to think about it for now I'm just enjoying my happiness cause after a very long time i mean months of a heavy heart i can finally lift up my head and say god damn it your worth it. if life's a mystery we are the dead people because no matter what our fate cant change the ones around us can only try to figure out what happened.
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