make it stop!

i need to talk to him! i need to talk to my new interest hes the only thing that can help me out! i need to talk to him i need to see him he can fill the hole in my heart he can fix me or at least he can try and i need that! i need it. but hes not online the one time i really need to talk to him hes not here i feel bad because i know i keep him up late but that's when i can talk to him and i need him! wow this all sounds horrible and pushy but i have to stop thinking about the last kid i need that to go away and when I'm with my new interest i forget the last kid ever happened and i love that. my new interest is so cute and nice and lovely. he has already said the sweetest things to me and I'm very happy with that... but to make matter worse the last kid is on facebook and i saw something he said to someone and i swear its like someone stabbed me in the face and i cant take that i cant! i have to stay strong but its so hard when all i want to do is break down and cry. but the tears don't fall they gather then stop gather then stop. its torture. life is fucking with me. like Jim carry says in my favorite movie "god is a little kid sitting by an ant hill with a magnifying glass he could save my life whenever he want but he'd rather burn off my feelers and watch me squirm!" and how true that is, how true that is.