normality?

my cousins facebook status really made me think. she said i shouldn't let little things bother me and just let go already. i don't know what shes talking about but that's exactly how i feel. but its not the little things people do its the little things i remember and i need to let that go. but the more i try the harder it gets. i mean I'm doing everything i possibly can to move on and i mean i have a lot but I'm still not perfect yet. and I'm wondering if i will ever be 100% again. now that doesn't mean i wont try but to explain it in the most simple way possible imagine there's 4 steps to getting over something like this. now the first week your at step 1 and the next week your at step 2 and so on and now your at step 4 but week 5 then one day your back at step 1 then the next day your at 4 again. its like coming this far means nothing every time i fall back to step 1 and then I'm fine but then i fall. its kinda like being drunk sometimes you can walk and then you fall randomly. I'm honestly out of options I've tried everything i can think of. today is one of those days when i fell. i haven't fallen too hard but just enough to bum me out. i need someone to reach into my life and pick me up and be my support as i stumble on back to normality. now i know my friends have done all they can to help me but now i need someone else someone that can fill the space that at this time is empty. that will most likely help pull me up. but i can just take any random person. there is one kid i think is good but I'm almost afraid to really like him cause what if he thinks he might like me but when he hears everything i did will he turn and run from me? will he understand that i once had problems but I'm OK now? i just don't know i guess ill just have to see how this all plays out.